solace within

Thursday, February 15, 2007
change is the only constant

Music- linkin park linkin park linkin park

This took place on v-day, during my recess in the canteen where I was seeling mai ya tang for sc.

Me: (sees ms wee) hello there ms wee! *beams*
W: *stares hard at me* OH HELLO THERE GENEVE! Oh my you've lost a lot of weight! Especially from your face!
Me: 0o I have?
W: Yes!
Me: Oh I didn't uhh know.
W: Anyhow, catch up with you another time yeah? bye!

Hmm. So I weighed myself when I got back home. I realised that I lost 1-2kg (my astig is bad, causing me to ALWAYS see double) again. From the social point of view, it's GREAT. But hmm 4-5kg in 4 mths. 1kg/mth should be okay right? oh nevermind

I know what an emotional wreck I've been lately. It's ironic how I was trying so hard to console 3 people at once; all people that mean so much to me. Then I go and fall flat on my face and move on to do what I told them NOT to do to me and others. I just had to refrain myself from spewing my usual "the world owes me the world speech" but I couldn't hold it anymore so I just yelled "THE WORLD OWES ME I TELL YOU!!!!" just before mep started when there was only 3-4/9 of us around. Yeah they were shocked and they asked why the world and they owed me but I was like lalala it's nothing. *beams*

And interestingly enough, we studied satie today. I honestly love people with interesting mindsets and habits, like buying 12 grey suits at once and wearing only 6 before you kick the bucket. Ms tan was saying that anyone who is super cynical and thinks the world is jaded and stuff would love him. When she asked that question, I didn't raise my hand. I just gave her a look. I think she got the idea. And omg her cookies are super nice. Heh.

To grace, if you ever read this:

Sorry for not answering your messages, but I'm 101% sure you know the golden answer. I just know that my expiry date is nearing. Remember what I told you that night? Yeah. I seriously mean it and you're the first person I've told. Honestly. I don't know what I want now. I can only put my finger on certain troubling factors, like...

1. My english is deteoriating. I think. Maybe I aim too high. I've always wanted to be un-understandable. I have no idea why either.

2. Yeah, the usual suspect of studies.

3. The golden, long-standing factor of ninnies all around me taking my jokes too seriously and taking me to be a freako.

4. An elf is sawing my vena cavas away. MY HEART JUST HURTS.

Yay and YONG CHIANG IS BACK. (: I MISSED YOU!

I mumbled to myself not to mumble ever again- 4:53 AM

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