solace within

Friday, March 09, 2007
to you.

this post is for a particular someone that I know I owe an explanation to for my actions. If you know that you aren't the one, don't bother about this post. If you have a feeling that you are, then read on. I know the person this is addressed to reads my blog.

I think we broke a record of not really talking to each other for a week. And it had to be the week just before the term break. Maybe it'll extend to 2 weeks. Though you're close to me, you were someone I didn't say "see ya!" to. I know I don't have to cos some things don't have to be said anymore. I hope you feel the same way too. This has been bugging on my mind. I haven't got time to resolve it this week cos of the tests and stuff to do that have been weighing heavy on me.

It's just something that hacalppened between us. No one's at fault, it's just circumstances. But we can make it change for the better. I want to, do you? We could work together and piece everything together again. Let's not wait till it's too late alright?

I remember there was one day some chinese (I think) teacher said sth about not forgetting about your old friends after making new ones. You shouldn't always stick to one person you know? I tried to talk to you but you just drift away. Then other stuff happened and I got quite fed up with you and I've been terribly stressed out (in the past, present and future), thus the nasty tones of late. I'm sorry for that. I really am.

You asked me about the attachment today. I really meant my answer about seeing if you can cope, if you can't cope with the bare essentials of schoolwork, don't go. I know I sounded extremely cynical, but I just didn't know how to face you somehow.

We seem so distant. Don't let our relationship drain away like it was worthless. It isn't. I'm at fault. Every time I get cynical or start talking more than I should, it's because I'm suffering from an inferiority complex inside that's been eating me for every meal. I'll either stone or be like that till it realy goes away I think.

So, will you forgive me? I hope you will.

I mumbled to myself not to mumble ever again- 6:30 AM

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